Hello! Im Maggie. Here you'll find Harry Potter related stuff. Some music and literature quotes. And i love LOVE so i will post that here too. If you have any questions or comments, im glad to answer them. Whether they are about life, love, school or just jokes! :)
A Dreamer's Fantasy
Alrighty! It has been a long time since I wrote here. Today I had a great day!
Stayed home all day. Spend it on the couch with a really great guy, my boyfriend V.
It’s weird to know how our relationship has been going on for almost 3 years and we still enjoy each others company. I mean just on Wednesday we watched Dexter, the latest episode, and we went crazy at the end of it. We couldn’t stop screaming and gasping and we were just too excited for the next episode!
And today, just a very simple day but we had so much fun. He acts all dorky and it makes me laugh like a kid again. It’s a real laugh. He makes me feel like a woman and a little girl .. We watched so much tv my head hurts now. But it was so much fun. He got a new camera that he likes to play with and he took about 20 pictures of me today. He says I look great! Then I look at it and I look like crap. I really wonder what he is looking at cuz I couldnt look any more dorky-nerdy. Oh well! Great day overall! I can’t wait for more of this to come! I love the holidays!! Time for bed now!
Buonanotte!!
This is what I woke up this morning to, I’m so happy and thankful for having him in my life. Happy thanksgiving everyone!!
Ok so this is one of those moments where our relationship crumbles a bit. It’s usually my fault because it’s hard for me to handle change. But I’m trying. I really am. I want to keep holding on because I know in the end it will be worth it.
We’ve gone throughout moments like this before. When life tries to pull us apart. When life wants to break what we have. So I know we can do this.
I just…
Well it’s hard.
It’s hard not to see you every day. Or talk to you. Tell you what happens in my life. It’s not great by the way but you wouldn’t know because we dont have time to talk about it. It hurts.
You were always there for me, but I know I have to make it through this one on my own. And I’ll do it..I have to.
I know things will be better in a few weeks, when your schedule is not as crazy.
I want you to know that I support you. I always will. I dont care if I have to go days and weeks without seeing you..I will never come between you and what you love to do. I’m your number one fan.
I hope you know that, because even thought it’s hard for me right now, I’ll get through it.
I miss you a lot. I miss us.
Soon enough we’ll be back to what we are meant to be; loving and playful couple. I know this will make us stronger than ever.
I just gotta believe. I gotta hold on even though I feel us slipping away.
Laying in bed and thinking about the past weekend and how much I love my boyfriend V.
The weekend went by so fast, and tomorrow it’s school time again. And so it begins all over again, going 5 days without him. It may not seem like a lot to most people but he’s not only my bf. He’s my best friend, the first one I tell everything to, the first one I ask for advice, the only one I tell everything that happens every day.
So 5 days is a Long time, we text but he’s so busy working he takes hours to answer.
Anyway, heres another Sunday night hoping that this week flies by because this weekend is super special. Going to Orlando to Halloween Horror Nights with him and we get to sleep together for two days. So it’s going to be awesome! Can’t wait! :)
It sucks it really sucks. I only see him once a week and for a few hours. We dont talk as much during the week either because sometimes his work gets busy. Before it used to be easy, I would see him almost every day in school, we would text during class and he would even come over after school. But now, none of that is possible. The worst thing of all is that he doesn’t see his friends either so he tries to make time for them which means less time with me. He is also really tired most of the time so we don’t go out, we just stay to watch tv. In any other time it would have been ok but I miss him so much I just wanna be with him and do nothing. Or just play around and laugh.. But sometimes he’s to tired to even joke around. I dont to be insensitive but I miss how we used to be. I loved the great old times we had.
All I can do is keep thinking that this is only momentary and that soon enough it will be in the past. I have to be supportive and endure all this that our relationship is going through. I have to do this because if I don’t it will definitely take a toll on both of us.
Relationships are hard! And I guess I’m scared of losing what we always had, we are such kids that like to joke around about everything. And i find it amazing that after so much time that we’ve been together we still make each otter laugh. I just don’t want to fall in to the pattern of “old married couple” we’ve been together for over 2 years and a half and I don’t want work and school and other stuff to come between our relationship. Like I said I’m just going to have to endure another week until I see him again and take it week by week. Sigh
LETS PLAY A GAME!
Ok you have probably heard about this before, if you havent ill explain it dont worry. Its a very simple game, EVERYONE can play! Your dad, mom, older sister, little brother, grandma, the neighbor, your facebook friends, EVERYONE can play.
Its a game online that teaches you english vocabulary AND donates food to hungry people.
Go to that page and start playing! You will be donating rice to hungry people!
Its the best of both worlds! You learn and you give!
Also, the words get harder as you move along so you learn more and you could even try to get top player!
Let this be your Act Of Kidness for the day and play for at least 5 mins! (every day would be even better!)
So, the second week of school is about to begin and even though the first week of school didnt require a lot to work, it exhausted me.
This is my last year of college and my boyfriend V, who i have been with for the past 2 years and a half, graduated last year so i am pretty much on my own. I miss waiting for him in the food court and hanging out with him for a few hours before he goes to class or before i go to work. It was great knowing that after my stressful classes i had someone to come to and relax again. What i am studying is really hard and sometimes it makes me worry thinking i cant do it, and he was always there when i needed a little boost of self confidence.
Anyways, things are different now. He got a job doing what he loves, and that makes me so happy! No many people get that chance. He works from Mon- Fri from 6am to 7pm or so and hes so busy during work hours that some times we dont text for hours. This is kinda hard for me because we always text each other, its like even if we are not together in person, by texting it feels like we are. But this whole business its making it hard for us to communicate and talk and just keep the close relationship that we usually have. So i think in some way, this whole deal has something to do with me being more stressed during the week.
I just hope that this week goes by faster so i can see him soon again! i know ill get use to it and it will get easier is just im not that good at adjusting to change. But we’ll see, i know we can work through everything. :)
Its sunday night, and i cant stop thinking about the great weekend i had. My parents were out of town! Yeah thats what every teenager wants to hear. But im not a teenager any more and the truth is, i didnt think about having a party or anything at all. In fact i just thought it would be a normal weekend like any other just without parents. But it turned out a lot better than i expected.
My parents left saturday in the early hours, way before the sun came up. On saturday i woke up kinda early, had breakfast and vacuum the house. Yes my mom assigned that task for me before she left on her trip. After vacuuming i took a shower and got ready to meet V outside because i had to print some papers out for him that he needed for his interview. He came back from the interview 30 mins later and pick me up to do some shopping of things he need it. We had so much fun at the different stores we went. When we were in Michaels he spinned me around and then kissed me. :D
After all the shopping we went home and relax in the couch. Did nothing but just talk and relax. It felt really good just to have him right next to me and talking to him, i hadnt seen him for a week and his work schedule is so busy we barely got time to talk during the week so i was happy to finally talk to him.
Around 8:30pm we went to meet with his friends to watch the UFC fight at the bar we always go to. We had our usual drinks and had so much fun. He was so sweet the whole night. When the fight ended we went home, it was already 11:30pm, i got ready for bed and we decided to watch the movie we had rented earlier that day. We watched Insidious with my sister in the living room, and thank goodnes he was staying over because it was a really good horror film.
We went to bed at 2am and it was so nice having him in bed with me. We never sleep together, last time it happened was in October last year when we went to Orlando. We watched Old School and talked and joke around and it was just really nice and relaxing. There is nothing like that feeling. That feeling that just feels so right to have him in the same bed, so close to me. The movie finally ended and we went to sleep. He said he was hot so we didnt cuddle too much but it was still nice to have him so close. At very early in the morning he woke up for a second to say good morning kiss me in the head and my hand. I put my head on his chest and slept there for 30 mins..during those 30 mins he started snoring! hahaha So i turned to sleep on the bed and he stopped snoring. -_-
He was holding my hand the whole time, and he would caress my arm every once in a while. We were half awake, half asleep but we didnt want to wake up because we knew it felt so good to be where we were. I dont think my heart could have been more peaceful or more happy.
He went home at 9am because his dad needed to use the car. Before he left we kissed and he told me to go back to sleep that he would be back at noon to hang out some more. :D
He came back at 1pm though and we just chilled in the living room watching tv, netflix and movies. He left in the afternoon, to rest before starting the week again. And also because i told him i had a lot of homework to do. Overall it was a magnificent weekend. I couldnt be happier. <3
Well maybe school will change my mood… lol
So today we (my family) got more bad news! Yuppie! The truth is it didn’t affect me much at all. Instead it affected my sister. Whenever we get bad news In my family I’m the first to know right after my parents. My sister doesn’t find out until after it’s resolved. Maybe we don’t tell her because we don’t want to worry her. Because there is no use to worry her, especially since theres nothing she can do. Maybe it was my job to tell her but I don’t because I want to protect her. All the bad news take a toll on me, and I just don’t want her to be in the same bad place as me. That was before though.
Before, every bit of bad news would affect me so much! I couldn’t understand why did we keep getting them? Why couldn’t we have a break? Why did my dad have the need to tell me? I know why. Because he needed someone to tell, and after my mom there’s me. And I have this optimism thing in me. As my dad would tell me a bad news I would think of ways on how to fix things or make them look smaller than they were. It worked, because I could see he felt better and because he kept coming back to me every time something else went wrong. But the truth is, behind all that optimism crap I was falling apart. I was battling to keep that smile on my face and that indifference tone while inside all I wanted was to be alone and cry. All I wanted to do was tell my dad to stop tormenting me with all this bad news! I couldn’t handle any more.
After cheering up my dad I would go to the bathroom, the only place no one can surprise u, and cry. Try not to scream and just cry. I would text my bf and tell him and he would give me the strength I needed to get out of the bathroom and go to bed.
It happened so often than I think little by little I started growing up. I started to see things clearly. I understood things got better after a while. That there was always a light at the end of the tunnel. I grew stronger. Immune to bad news. I could handle them because I had been through worse.
So when I saw my sister cry over this news i once again smiled and told her how we were gonna fix it or how it was smaller than it seemed. And once again I calmed someone down. The only difference was that this time I believed it. I know things are going to be ok. So I’m not worried, in due time things will get better. And seeing my sister react like that made me realize how I’ve much grown, how I handle myself better now. Yet at the same time I step out for a minute and think, how many bad news have I gotten, or how many bad times have I faced for me to not be concerned about this one. It’s sad how a persons life becomes so crappy, so full of bad moments that another one just doesn’t make a difference any more.
